New start SOON. Yea, very soon.
Its gonna be another path.
Thought of lots of things in the pass 3 months.
Lots of story been heard, and lesson learnt.
And yea.... Lots of lesson still to be learn.
This day been counting money lots.
For support, my life, for album, for bla bla bla.
These day, Im busying counting Slogans, Fans, and Donation money.
Not gonna say anything.. but i din expect to pay that much from my pocket for the particular things...
The last donation collected seems to be... kinda... bad.... yea.. bad...
I only managed to get half of the target... which mean, another half i need to put in myself, while I'm jobless previously and not much money left.
Why being a fans is such a poor things when come to money.
As dionna always say, we dont need a purse, because our money never keep.
Not to say our self poor, it's because we love them so we willing to give out.
As always, we can heard people saying: wahhhhhh u got this! I envy you.
TBVH, I dont like or I can say I hate this kind of comment?
I think i mentioned before, be the person who people envy, but not envy people.
Did you realised what people did behind in order to get those things?
Envy? saying those words making ppl feel happy?
NAHHHHHHHH.... you might be right or you might be wrong....
Everything needs effort in order to get it. There is no free lunch in the world.
Complaining doesn't help... action does.
I dont like envying people.... this is my weird part...
I feels that envy makes me feel worseand MYSELF useless..
It doesnt motivates me but makes me worse..
The only way to makes me motivated is.... show me, prove me the things is correct and I should do so.
Im always wrong, that makes me lose my previous job.
Im not a good nor perfect people. Im a person with illness TBVH.
The illness doesnt harm other... but it harms myself and my partner.....
RMB..... Be the one people envy, but not the one who envy other.
