Think Thought Thought

New start SOON. Yea, very soon.

Its gonna be another path.


Thought of lots of things in the pass 3 months.

Lots of story been heard, and lesson learnt.

And yea.... Lots of lesson still to be learn.


This day been counting money lots.

For support, my life, for album, for bla bla bla.

These day, Im busying counting Slogans, Fans, and Donation money.

Not gonna say anything.. but i din expect to pay that much from my pocket for the particular things...

The last donation collected seems to be... kinda... bad.... yea.. bad...

I only managed to get half of the target... which mean, another half i need to put in myself, while I'm jobless previously and not much money left.

Why being a fans is such a poor things when come to money.

As dionna always say, we dont need a purse, because our money never keep.



Not to say our self poor, it's because we love them so we willing to give out.

As always, we can heard people saying: wahhhhhh u got this! I envy you.

TBVH, I dont like or I can say I hate this kind of comment?

I think i mentioned before, be the person who people envy, but not envy people.

Did you realised what people did behind in order to get those things?

Envy? saying those words making ppl feel happy?

NAHHHHHHHH.... you might be right or you might be wrong....

Everything needs effort in order to get it. There is no free lunch in the world.

Complaining doesn't help... action does.

I dont like envying people.... this is my weird part...

I feels that envy makes me feel worseand MYSELF useless..

It doesnt motivates me but makes me worse..



The only way to makes me motivated is.... show me, prove me the things is correct and I should do so.

Im always wrong, that makes me lose my previous job.

Im not a good nor perfect people. Im a person with illness TBVH.

The illness doesnt harm other... but it harms myself and my partner.....



RMB..... Be the one people envy, but not the one who envy other.

空窗期的开始与结束

我的空窗期, 是什么时候开始的, 我永远都不会忘记.

我的空窗期, 不是恋爱的.

3个月了... 想好多哦....

你相信吗? 就那么3个月, 真的可以让一个人改变很大的.

我好希望自己的空窗期可以结束了...

想给自己一个期望, 主宰自己的命运.



三个月内, 想了很多.

做一个人, 做一个女儿, 做一个朋友, 做一个知己, 做一个员工, 甚至做一个粉丝

这些都一直在想....

就在这3个月, 觉得自己好多失败的地方.

不是个好人, 好女儿, 好朋友, 好知己, 好员工, 好粉丝.

不足的地方实在太多了.



想多了, 就会一直想和自己说: 做自己.

顾虑太多, 真的会....

如果一个朋友不想和你做朋友, 你和他纠缠下去也没意思.

如果一个父母不满意你做的事情, 会骂你让你知道你什么事情做得不好.

如果一个知己不了解你想的知己, 趁早断绝关系.

如果一个员工不会和别人相处, 那这个地方就不适合他了.

如果一个粉丝不会在适当的时候给自己的偶像适当的支持, 不做也罢.



说得容易, 做真的很难....

怎么可能不去想别人的想法, 除非你是冷血的.

哭, 真的能解决事情?

如果可以, 我已经回到3月了.

眼泪.... 好脆弱哦....



我的想法是特别, 还是正常?

我一直反复问自己. 我是奇怪, 还是我遇见不对的人而已.

有时候, 我不是需要别人称赞.... 我是真的一个喜欢和别人分享我的喜悦的人.... 或者悲伤..

如果真的哪里让你不喜欢了, 在这里想说: 抱歉, 我冒犯你了.

我会努力做一个人人都觉得OK的人. 真的.

给我时间.